Right Where I Am

I see the hand of God directing me; confirming the way that I have chosen; confirming that He is leading me. It was not a coincidence that my sister-in-law gave me the same little book I had been reading. It was confirmation that God is speaking to me through the prophetic words. God sees me right where I am and He says "Yes I am speaking to you".

I wrote the blog "Chemo Brain Frog" on the effects of chemo brain fog. I received an email from a published author who said my writing was inspirational. She too had felt the effects of chemo brain fog. That is further confirmation to me that God sees me right where I am and He says "Yes I am using you".

I had decided to join Facebook, knowing that this was another "piece of the puzzle" that God would use in my life. I had joined True Vibe, the non-denominational women's group in my hometown. I had attended a Bible Study that they had sponsored, but I was not currently involved in one since being diagnosed with ovarian cancer. They had recently begun the Beth Moore study "A Woman's Heart: God's Dwelling Place". I had wanted to attend that study, but I wasn't sure if I would be physically up to it. I was still recovering from surgery and I needed two more chemo treatments. I noticed that the co-ordinator had posted the videos on the group's Facebook site. As I watched the introductary video, I heard God say "Yes I know where you are. I am making a way for Me to meet with you". I messaged the co-ordinator and was able to obtain a study guide. I will be able to work at my own pace, as I am clear-headed; I can watch the videos on-line. When I have recovered from the final chemo treatment I can join the ladies in person.

It would be easy to succumb to self-pity when I am in the midst of chemo brain fog or in my times of isolation, but God keeps pouring on the encouragement. I am in awe of God's relentless pursuit of me. He longs to speak to me; He longs to lead me; He longs to use me right where I am.